So what is keeping me up at night? I worry about ending up right back where I started from just two years ago: 245 pounds, out of shape, no control of my blood sugar levels, ignoring my dental health, lacking any sort of joy. I'm a long way from that point but some days, inside my head, it feels just a quick ride from where I am right back to the beginning.
For about the last eight months, I've on-and-off flirted with my binge eating disorder. For those not familiar with binge eating disorder, here's how it looks for me:
- I eat a lot, quickly, even when I'm not hungry;
- I feel like I can't stop eating even when I'm uncomfortably full;
- I feel ashamed about my eating episodes and usually try to hide what and how much I'm eating from others around me.